there is so incredibly much going on right now.. SOO MUCH. so many important things and for somereason only one sticks out to me only one keeps me up and night and circles my head relentlessly all day.. that boy.. i love him so much if only he knew..i know its better that we’re not together..for everyone elses sake but god it hurts without him..all i remember is how how great things were wen i could call him mine all i want is to be in his arms but it hurts so much wen i am because i know it wont last.. my mind knows what i need to do but but all my heart wants is to stop bleeding for even a few days.. talking about it hurts but i cant stop thinking about him.. everyone says that this pain will fade but i cant see that happening..all i know is that he WILL hurt me again and i CAN do this.

its been a while so hi all i just felt like writing..i been really sad lately.. i love you all <3